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Birthday Blues Today is my 37th birthday ::sighs:: I swore to myself last year at this time that by my next birthday I would have lost at least another 25 lbs. The sad thing is I am at the same weight now that I was this time last year. I know I should be happy that I haven't gained any of the 40 lbs. I had already lost back, but I am still disappointed that I haven't made any further weight-loss success. I think hubby is disappointed too. He doesn't say anything, but I know he would be much happier if I were closer to my goal weight than I am at the moment. I keep telling myself that it took me 10 years to put all of these pounds on, and they aren't going to come off over night. I just wish I had the same enthusiasm I had when I lost those first 40. Of course, I wasn't losing them in a very healthy manner. I hardly ate and I was smoking myself to death. Plus, I was losing the weight in order to find me a new man. Then hubby came along and I have hardly lost anything since. I am definitely more toned up now due to our sexercise, but I bounce between 265 and 267 constantly. I do know that I want to lose these last 115 lbs. in a more healthy manner, making a life-style change and not starving myself. I just wish I could get over this damn plateau I am on. If I can just get on the down-side of 250, then perhaps that enthusiasm will come back and I will reach my goal weight of 150 sooner. My Goals for Friday: 1. Meet my water-intake goal. 2. Take that late evening walk. 3. Do at least 30 mins of Pilates. 4. Lift weights for at least 30 mins. ::Wishes self much luck and success::
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